Author: Hoshea Allen

I grew up in Canada during the 60s and 70s — a time when life felt simpler, slower, and somehow more grounded. I had a great childhood, full of sports, music and opportunity. I trained as a classical violinist (with some piano thrown in for good measure), but somewhere along the way, I got it into my head that I’d discover the cure for cancer. So I traded concert halls for chemistry labs and dove deep into the world of biochemistry, molecular biology, and genetics. From running my high school’s radio station to chasing PhD dreams in Houston, I was all in — but something always felt off. Like the most important piece of the puzzle was missing. In my mid-20s, I made a bold move — leaving the lab behind to study theology in a quiet East Texas town. I spent 12 years there (yes, despite the fire ants and humidity), and enjoyed teaching college students everything they needed to know for success in med school. I even squeezed in an archaeological dig in Syria and a whirlwind tour through Israel. Somewhere in that chapter, I married an incredible woman from Minnesota. Together, we raised two amazing sons, and eventually — after years in both science and education — we felt a strong pull toward traditional Judaism. One thing led to another, and in 2012, we made aliyah and settled in Beit Shemesh, Israel where we still live today. Life since then? A mix of science, teaching, long commutes to Haifa, and extensive soul-searching. After the disruptions of the Covid era, I stepped away from the corporate world and said, "Enough! From now on, with the help of Hashem, only something important, something real." In time, all the winding paths of my life found their meeting point in Breslov Chassidut. It felt like returning home.
A Worm, Drippings of a Honeycomb and Men of Faith
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A Worm, Drippings of a Honeycomb and Men of Faith

Rosh Hashanah and Breaking the Power of Imagination: Good things come in threes: three patriarchs (Avraham, Yitzchak and Ya'akov), three mochin [spiritual brains] (chochmah, binah and da'at), three kinds of seichel [intellect] (potential, actualized and acquired), three lower aspects of the Jewish soul (nefesh, ruach and neshamah), three 'garments', i.e. manifestations, of the soul (machshavah…

Lost and Found
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Lost and Found

The Role of the Tzaddikim in Finding What We Lost: R' Simlai taught the following Baraita about the developing Jewish child in his mother's womb (Niddah 30b): ונר דלוק לו על ראשו וצופה ומביט מסוף העולם ועד סופו…ואין לך ימים שאדם שרוי בטובה יותר מאותן הימים…ומלמדין אותו כל התורה כולה…וכיון שבא לאויר העולם בא מלאך…

Innocent or Guilty? It's the Jury's Decision
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Innocent or Guilty? It's the Jury's Decision

A Generation that is Entirely Innocent or Entirely Guilty: R' Yochanan taught (Sanhedrin 98a): אין בן דוד בא אלא בדור שכולו זכאי או כולו חייב. בדור שכולו זכאי דכתיב (ישעיהו ס, כא) ועמך כולם צדיקים לעולם יירשו ארץ בדור שכולו חייב דכתיב (ישעיהו נט, טז) וירא כי אין איש וישתומם כי אין מפגיע וכתיב (ישעיהו…

It All Depends on Your Vessel
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It All Depends on Your Vessel

How the Torah Can Be an Elixir of Life or a Deadly Poison: It is taught in Kiddushin 30b: תָּנוּ רַבָּנַן: ״וְשַׂמְתֶּם״ סַם תָּם, נִמְשְׁלָה תּוֹרָה כְּסַם חַיִּים (The Rabbis taught in a Baraita, "And you shall place [these words of Mine upon your heart and upon your soul]" [Devarim 11:18], a perfect elixir. The…

A Graceful Ibex and the Healing of the Moon
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A Graceful Ibex and the Healing of the Moon

Having Our Prayers and Requests Accepted: It is taught (Chullin 60b): רבי שמעון בן פזי רמי כתיב "ויעש אלקים את שני המאורות הגדולים" וכתיב "את המאור הגדול…ואת המאור הקטן" אמרה ירח לפני הקב"ה רבש"ע אפשר לשני מלכים שישתמשו בכתר אחד אמר לה לכי ומעטי את עצמך (R' Shimon ben Pazi raised a contradiction. It is…

Don't Give Up – You are Hashem's Whole Desire
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Don't Give Up – You are Hashem's Whole Desire

The Incredible Journey of Eternal Soulmates: Life has been difficult lately – not just here in Eretz Yisrael but everywhere. And when life is difficult all over, people have a tendency to lose hope and get depressed. They begin by wondering if their life has any meaning or if Hashem bothers to pay any attention…

The Danger of Relying on Self-Evaluation
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The Danger of Relying on Self-Evaluation

The Dispute Between Zimri and Pinchas: The Gemara in Berachot 32a offers different 'proof texts' to show that Moshe Rabbeinu spoke somewhat impertinently [הֵטִיחַ דְּבָרִים כְּלַפֵּי מַעְלָה, literally, 'he threw his words upward'] to Ha-Kadosh, baruch Hu when he sought to defend B'nei Yisrael on account of their sins. One such case was in defense…

To Perceive the Inner Dimension of Torah
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To Perceive the Inner Dimension of Torah

Making One's Prayers a Delight to Hashem: In Chullin 60b, Rav Asi reconciles an apparent contradiction in the account of creation regarding when the grasses grew from the ground (see Bereshit 1:12 and Bereshit 2:5 for specifics). He answered as follows: שיצאו דשאים ועמדו על פתח קרקע עד שבא אדם הראשון ובקש עליהם רחמים וירדו…