Author: Hoshea Allen

I grew up in Canada during the 60s and 70s — a time when life felt simpler, slower, and somehow more grounded. I had a great childhood, full of sports, music and opportunity. I trained as a classical violinist (with some piano thrown in for good measure), but somewhere along the way, I got it into my head that I’d discover the cure for cancer. So I traded concert halls for chemistry labs and dove deep into the world of biochemistry, molecular biology, and genetics. From running my high school’s radio station to chasing PhD dreams in Houston, I was all in — but something always felt off. Like the most important piece of the puzzle was missing. In my mid-20s, I made a bold move — leaving the lab behind to study theology in a quiet East Texas town. I spent 12 years there (yes, despite the fire ants and humidity), and enjoyed teaching college students everything they needed to know for success in med school. I even squeezed in an archaeological dig in Syria and a whirlwind tour through Israel. Somewhere in that chapter, I married an incredible woman from Minnesota. Together, we raised two amazing sons, and eventually — after years in both science and education — we felt a strong pull toward traditional Judaism. One thing led to another, and in 2012, we made aliyah and settled in Beit Shemesh, Israel where we still live today. Life since then? A mix of science, teaching, long commutes to Haifa, and extensive soul-searching. After the disruptions of the Covid era, I stepped away from the corporate world and said, "Enough! From now on, with the help of Hashem, only something important, something real." In time, all the winding paths of my life found their meeting point in Breslov Chassidut. It felt like returning home.
To Sleep Like a Horse

To Sleep Like a Horse

How to Come Out from Under the Control of the Sitra Achra: Imagine a prison, a fairly standard prison – at least standard in the way that many prisons used to be. From sunrise to sunset, the prisoners are forced into hard labor. They don't get much time to rest and they're not allowed to…

Sold for a Pair of Shoes
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Sold for a Pair of Shoes

The Job of a Shoemaker: It is written (Amos 2:6): כֹּה אָמַר יְיָ עַל־שְׁלֹשָׁה פִּשְׁעֵי יִשְׂרָאֵל וְעַל־אַרְבָּעָה לֹא אֲשִׁיבֶנּוּ עַל־מִכְרָם בַּכֶּסֶף צַדִּיק וְאֶבְיוֹן בַּעֲבוּר נַעֲלָיִם׃ (So said Hashem, For three crimes of Yisrael, and for four, I will not turn away, for their sale of a tzaddik and a pauper for a pair of shoes)….

The Seven Bows that Changed the Course of the World
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The Seven Bows that Changed the Course of the World

How Come Esav Didn't Do Teshuvah? Ya'akov Avinu had finally extricated himself from Lavan's control. He had crossed the Yarden, entered Eretz Cana'an and was preparing to meet his brother Esav. He sent messengers ahead of himself, whom Rashi tells us, based on Bereshit Rabbah 75:4, were מַלְאָכִים מַמָּשׁ (literally 'angels'), instructing them with these…

The Right and the Left of the Torah

The Right and the Left of the Torah

Learning Torah Lishmah vs. Lo-Lishmah: As a post-script to our essay Cunning: Skill to Achieve One's Goals by Deceit, Rav Sheishet taught (Shabbat 63a): מַאי דִכְתִיב ״אֹרֶךְ יָמִים בִּימִינָהּ בִּשְׂמֹאלָהּ עֹשֶׁר וְכָבוֹד״ אֶלָּא בִּימִינָהּ אֹרֶךְ יָמִים אִיכָּא, עֹשֶׁר וְכָבוֹד לֵיכָּא?! אֶלָּא: לַמַּיְימִינִין בָּהּ אֹרֶךְ יָמִים אִיכָּא, וְכָל שֶׁכֵּן עוֹשֶׁר וְכָבוֹד. לַמַּשְׂמְאִילִים בָּהּ עוֹשֶׁר וְכָבוֹד אִיכָּא,…

Cunning: Skill in Achieving One's Ends by Deceit
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Cunning: Skill in Achieving One's Ends by Deceit

What Was So Wrong With Lavan? It is written (Bereshit 3:1): וְהַנָּחָשׁ הָיָה עָרוּם מִכֹּל חַיַּת הַשָּׂדֶה אֲשֶׁר עָשָׂה יְיָ אֱלֹקִים (And the Nachash was more arum than all the animals of the field which Hashem G-d had made). What is the meaning of עָרוּם [arum]? The Bechor Shor says it means that he spoke…

What the Debate Was Really About
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What the Debate Was Really About

The Brothers Ate Eiver Min ha-Chai? When beginning the story of Yosef, the Torah tells us (Bereshit 37:2): וַיָּבֵא יוֹסֵף אֶת־דִּבָּתָם רָעָה אֶל־אֲבִיהֶם (And Yosef brought their defamation to their father). Much has been written about how the brothers defamed Yosef, but what was at the root of their disagreement with him? Rashi lists three…