Author: Hoshea Allen

I grew up in Canada during the 60s and 70s — a time when life felt simpler, slower, and somehow more grounded. I had a great childhood, full of sports, music and opportunity. I trained as a classical violinist (with some piano thrown in for good measure), but somewhere along the way, I got it into my head that I’d discover the cure for cancer. So I traded concert halls for chemistry labs and dove deep into the world of biochemistry, molecular biology, and genetics. From running my high school’s radio station to chasing PhD dreams in Houston, I was all in — but something always felt off. Like the most important piece of the puzzle was missing. In my mid-20s, I made a bold move — leaving the lab behind to study theology in a quiet East Texas town. I spent 12 years there (yes, despite the fire ants and humidity), and enjoyed teaching college students everything they needed to know for success in med school. I even squeezed in an archaeological dig in Syria and a whirlwind tour through Israel. Somewhere in that chapter, I married an incredible woman from Minnesota. Together, we raised two amazing sons, and eventually — after years in both science and education — we felt a strong pull toward traditional Judaism. One thing led to another, and in 2012, we made aliyah and settled in Beit Shemesh, Israel where we still live today. Life since then? A mix of science, teaching, long commutes to Haifa, and extensive soul-searching. After the disruptions of the Covid era, I stepped away from the corporate world and said, "Enough! From now on, with the help of Hashem, only something important, something real." In time, all the winding paths of my life found their meeting point in Breslov Chassidut. It felt like returning home.
The Merit of the Wicked
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The Merit of the Wicked

R' Abahu said (Berachot 34b): מָקוֹם שֶׁבַּעֲלֵי תְשׁוּבָה עוֹמְדִין צַדִּיקִים גְּמוּרִים אֵינָם עוֹמְדִין שֶׁנֶּאֱמַר שָׁלוֹם שָׁלוֹם לָרָחוֹק וְלַקָּרוֹב לָרָחוֹק בְּרֵישָׁא וַהֲדַר לַקָּרוֹב (In the place ba’alei teshuvah stand, complete tzaddikim cannot stand, as it says [Yeshayah 57:19], ‘Shalom, shalom to him who is far away and to him who is near’, ‘to him who is…

The King Who Causes Death

The King Who Causes Death

As is known, the first three berachot of the Shemoneh Esreh form a set which relate the praise of Hashem for His three fundamental attributes of chesed (love, giving and kindness), gevurah (justice, strictness and self-restraint) and tiferet (beauty, harmony, truth, mercy and holiness). It is also known that these three berachot correspond to the…

There is Mercy, and There is Mercy

There is Mercy, and There is Mercy

The second berachah of the Shemoneh Esreh, the one that praises G‑d for His attribute of gevurah [strictness, judgment, self-restraint, etc.], opens with these words: אַתָּה גִבּוֹר לְעוֹלָם אֲדֹנָ­­‑י מְחַיֶּה מֵתִים אַתָּה רַב לְהוֹשִׁיעַ…מְכַלְכֵּל חַיִּים בְּחֶסֶד מְחַיֵּה מֵתִים בְּרַחֲמִים רַבִּים (You are always mighty, Adon-ai, You resurrect the dead, abundant to effect salvation, You sustain…

For Men’s Eyes Only
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For Men’s Eyes Only

When writing about the importance of reciting the Shema morning and evening, we often focus on the first verse that declares the oneness of G‑d, i.e. Hashem echad. However, in this article we’re going to focus on a verse in the third paragraph (Bamidbar 15:39): וְהָיָה לָכֶם לְצִיצִת וּרְאִיתֶם אֹתוֹ וּזְכַרְתֶּם אֶת־כׇּל־מִצְוֺת יְיָ וַעֲשִׂיתֶם אֹתָם…

Finding Your Shidduch: Rectifying Adam
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Finding Your Shidduch: Rectifying Adam

Part 3: The Lights of the Supernal Aleph (Likutei Moharan 6:5) This is the third article in our series focused on finding one’s zivug in today’s world. To recap, the first article explained that the root of the problem is related to the widespread difficulty that [young] men today have in being shomer brit. When…

Finding Your Shidduch: Splitting the Sea and Disgrace
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Finding Your Shidduch: Splitting the Sea and Disgrace

Part 2: The Essence of Teshuvah (Likutei Moharan 6:2) In last week’s article, we examined the true reason behind the shidduch crisis in the orthodox Jewish world. With G-d’s help, we will now begin to lay out the path that a young man can take in order to cleanse his way, thereby meriting to marry…

Finding Your Shidduch: Bikkurim and Basar b’Chalav
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Finding Your Shidduch: Bikkurim and Basar b’Chalav

Part 1: Defining the Problem (Tikkunei Zohar 14) The orthodox Jewish world is in the midst of a crisis, a crisis of not being able to find one’s marriage partner [shidduch]. Many young men and women are either not dating, or even if they are dating, they are having a difficult time finding that ‘perfect…